It's all the same.

High School

Where you walk through the door and don’t know who you’re going to meet,

You walk through the door with your backpack and your feet.

The secret is what everyone is doing,

And you wonder where everyone’s going.

So what’s going on with everyone?

She’s smoking pot,

He’s in the gang,

Did they break up again?

She’s prom queen,

And he’s captain of the football team.

They’re having a baby,

And no one knows what the true story is.

No one knows what home life is like.

All we can do is assume.

Everyone fails to realize one thing,

They all need each other, like a family.

The Stoner secretly looks forward to the Preppy girl’s ‘Hello.’,

And the Preppy girl needs the Brain to succeed.

The Jock looks forward to the Chess Geek’s effort at being strong.

Walk through the halls,

Everyone’s in the daze,

Hoping the drinking, the cutting, the sex, and the drugs,

Will all take care of the awful haze.

Secretly, they all fit together, like a puzzle.

They need each other to proceed.

They realize not everyone is the book they once did read,

They have one another to fulfill the need.

-Hailey-Lynn Elyea

To the Fullest.

Live life to the fullest. 

Don't think twice about the little things. 

Don't throw your feelings into doubt. 

If you're in love, let it sprout. 

Sing for the moment,

not the past,

if something's surreal,

let it last.

Keep the bandages on old wounds,

or peel them off and let it heal.

Whatever you choose,

make sure you feel.

Life's an adventure,

live it long,

sometimes it's a beautiful song.

Summer nights are a wondrous sight,

so hold on,

with all your might.

Love is a flame,

not a game,

do not go for it to attract fame.

Trust me, you'll love it when he whispers your name.

You're gonna go far,

don't hide your scars,

You're gonna go far,

aim for the stars.

-HaileyLynn Elyea.

Everything.

It's late, I'm not tired, and it's going to be one of those nights.

I currently have an upset stomach. And it's disgusting.

I had one of the most amazing times of my life these past few days. Tucker gives the beat to my heart. (:

We've been together since Wednesday. His graduation party was yesterday, the ceremony was today, I helped his mother on Friday. Ugh, busy weekend. But, so worth it. I loved spending so much time with him, and being around him all the time. I loved him being there to cuddle up with. I think what made my day the most is the fact that he always came to give me a good night kiss and came to tuck me in, even if he wasn't going to bed. Goes to show how much he cares. He has the biggest heart. <3

I can't believe that he has now graduated. Time flew by so fast on us.

One of the best things, is that his family was there a lot this weekend. I really like his family, and I believe they like me as well. His gram is one of the funniest people ever. She LOVES to give me shit. His aunt is really nice and always chats with me. And I am finally starting to think his mom likes me. I think she has for the time that we have been dating, but I just get paranoid about it. She probably thinks I am an airhead though. Haha. Ah, I like her anyway.

But, being with his family made me realize how much I missed and needed mine. I missed MY mother. My mother and I are close in some sort of weird way.. we don't hit the malls and spend hundreds of dollars on Saturdays or anything. But we do like to watch TV and hit up the thrift stores once in awhile. She's an amazing person. I shouldn't treat her like I do sometimes. I love her.

I have also realized the I am in a hurry to grow up. But, at the same time, the more grown up I get, the more I want to be little. I think I have a fear of dying, a severe fear of dying. Maybe that's why I want to rush life. Maybe not. I'm not quite sure what's up there, if anything. I hope something is there though.

I was watching Dr. Phil earlier and it was about these girls who beat and tortured a 12 year old girl, and later set her on fire and let her burn to death. Oh my god. I could not imagine. I would not want to die like that. But then again, who would? I'm so afraid of dying tragically.

The world can be so happy, but yet so sad.

I think I have learned to cherish the good and forget the bad. In which all people should.

Summer is here. I'm not sure I want it to be. But, I guess I should accept it.

Tucker will be picking up more hours. I'm really scared for that. I don't want him to grow up on me. I'm afraid that he's going to up and leave for something or someone better. I think I would probably die. So, I hold on to every second. He's so amazing to me, I want to hold all those moments forever. They're the most important.

So for now, I'll hold tight. And I'll never let go.

Jealousy Kills

I trust you but not her.

Mostly because I am one of her, I know how we operate.

And if she can't keep herself contained, two can play at this game. ;)

It's only fair.

You're mine. I love you. And you love me. But I swear to god it tore me apart to see that.

Fuck her. She's just a piece of trash anyway. And she's practically a home wrecking little slut.

Quite frankly, I wish lightning to strike her.

-Hailey

You left me to remain, with all your exuses for everything.

The more you don't come around, the more I realize I don't need you. The more you do come around, I realize the monster you've become. So you can go ahead and stay away, I sort of like it better that way. The more I don't have to hear about him and the more I can keep my composure. You've had me up countless hours, from being on my mind. You say you're angry I didn't see you but my question is: how does it feel? You've held my hand for so many years and suddenly let go. You were the person I'd run to when what, I didn't know.

So forget the countless cookies, the million dresses I wanted, the countless trips to the grocery store, and all the fried chicken fat I absorbed. Because it's all gone, just like you. You're a piece of history, and that's all you'll ever be. The person I once knew is all dead to me. I'll sit here in my plaid shirt, and I'll remember the man who never changed. The man who didn't have a chance to. The man who is out of your thoughts, but permanently burned into mine.

I'll sit back, and watch you change our family. And bring his into ours. But don't worry about introducing us because they're just random fish in the sea. Ones I don't care to see.

I hope it was worth it. What you gave up for them. Because things will never be the same again. So go on with your new family. And have a great time with them. Because the family you left here, is going on with life. Like I have learned to do. That's one of the things you taught me. One that I should forget. Because secretly, I want to live in the past, and this future I will forget.

So thanks for forgetting us. And I should learn to forget you. And if you ever feel this way towards me, my question is:

How does it feel?

-Hailey

That feeling.

You know it's love when you get that feeling,

That sense of absolute healing.

When you're close the whole world stops.

But when you're miles away my heart starts to decay.

You've got me gasping for air,

from that moment you walk in and I start to stare.

So, hold me tight, and let's linger.

Make me a promise with your pinky finger.

I promise you my love until the end of time,

It's free of charge, no nickels or dimes.

-Hailey Hyphen Lynn. (:

Losing balance for love, keeps the balance of life.

So, there's a guy named TuckerGarretHanson; and I happen to love him more than anything in the world. July 19th 2009, happens to be the best day of my life because of him. I guess you could say, stuff just happens like this.

Tucker is my cousin's cousin on the other side of my cousin's family. Makes sense, right? So, I guess you could say I've known him my whole life. But then there was a birthday party that changed everything. At the particular birthday party, we were hanging out in my cousin's room and just chatting back and forth, when it came time for me to leave, he asked for my cellphone number. This immediately made my heart sink, I had thought this kid was the cutest thing in the world (for some reason... :)) for the longest time, and now he was asking me for my number?

So, I put my number in his phone and leave the birthday party, what does this guy do? Sends me a text about giraffe sex, what the fuck, right? But from there on, we clicked immediately. For the next two weeks, we texted non-stop. We called each other for hours every night, I recall talking on the phone for like 4 hours one night.

Two er some weeks later, my family had planned a trip to the drive in, and I asked him to go. I was so nervous. Well, anyway he said yes and we picked him up and went. Maybe this kid moved a little fast but, he took hold of my hand within minutes of getting in the car. I guess you could say we really bonded without really having to say much of anything. We talked and whatnot, don't get me wrong but, something was there right away.

At the time, I was so naive as to anything about dating. But, some time into the movie he kissed me, and kissed me.. (What a pig, right?) but I didn't mind. Something was there. We fit together already, especially looking back.

So, we crept out of the car between movies. And this was the moment that changed my life for the whole time of it... He took me behind the drive in and asked me to be his girlfriend. I was so flattered, I thought I was going to die. Tucker is 3 (alright, 2 years and 10 months) years older than me. He was in high school and everything, he had a choice of a lot of girls, you know? But he chose me, junior high, unattractive, obnoxious me.

So, you're guessing I said yes, right? WRONG.


Alright, just kidding.


I said yes.


From there on, we were pretty much inseparable. We did everything together on the weekends. One weekend, we were going on a camping trip and it started raining so we had to go home. He got to stay at my house and lemme tell ya, I was nervous as all hell. No, this isn't the part where we romantically sleep together. Dad wasn't having that. But, we did our darnedest to stay touching. I was so happy.


So, that's how we started. Let's fast forward a bit, shall we? ~>~>~>~>

So, Tucker and I were glued together on weekends and for the rest of that summer.

But then, I went crazy and broke up with him. It felt right at the time. But dear god, did it hurt when I found out it wasn't. I begged and begged for him back. I was so stupid for ever letting that go. It was difficult getting him back, but I did. I literally thought I was going to die when we were apart.

~>~>~>~>

So, Tux and I have had our ups and downs, but I've learned one thing, I really love him. With all my heart. He's everything to me. Some days, I live for only him.

We've been dating for almost two years now. It's so strange to think about. We're inseparable now, as we always will be. And that's just the way it is. If the worst were to ever happen, he'll always own that spot he's earned in my heart.

I know one thing's for sure, I'm not going anywhere and neither is he. I hope to marry him and have his kids someday, maybe a little sooner than he'd like. (:

Tucker, I know you're reading this, and I want you to know that I love you more than anything in the world, keep my heart beating.

Love always,

Hailey.

The years go by and time just seems to fly, but the memories remain.

So, Summer is fast approaching and I'm pretty excited. Sun tea on the back porch, sitthing out until un-godly hours in the morning, camping, and the beautiful summer mornings with the birds chirping. ♥

But, it seems as if the years are flying by. It was yesterday I was waking up at Gram's and watching thunderstorms on the back deck, wasn't it? I really miss the carefree times of childhood, yet I'm so excited to launch forward. I miss the good times. A lot.

Also, June and July are coming up. Gram's getting married in June, yippee... NOT. And mine and Tucker's anivarsary is July 19th. I'm excited for that more than anything. I think I might die.

Taylor and I have an interesting Summer ahead of us, I'd like to believe. As do Tucker and. I.

The one thing I am not excited for though is the fact that Tucker is graduating this month and will probably get a full time job or something of the sort. I'm a little nervous for that change. I really hate changes to things I am so used to. Hence the in-excitence for Gram's wedding.

But, I am really scared for this Summer because I feel that we will drift and everything will be different. I'm afraid of him going into adulthood and me being left behind. I sort of fell as if everything is slipping away. But I don't want to let it.

I don't know if I have enough love to overcome. I hope it does though.

Love Always,

Hailey

Cigarettes and Guitars

My Gramps died when I was 5 years old, he was my best friend. Now, all I am left with is his old guitar. No, no bottle of booze to go with it either, Johnny.. I've named the guitar Vern, he is 39 years of age. He's a vintage Gibson Hummingbird, and I love him with all my heart. He's sweet, deep, jazzy, classy, and smooth, to say the least. <3 I can't play him, but I intend to learn, I shall make a promise to my Grandfather.


So, here it is. I promise to you Grandpa Duane, to learn to play Vern, even though I will never be as good as you. <3


Also, while we're talking, I love you with all my heart and miss you, beyond the meaning of words.

Hey guys, have you ever lost someone near to you? I hope you keep them in mind and talk to them once in a while. It helps.



Love always,
HaileyHyphen. <3

Monday Night RAW

Tonight, being a Monday night, RAW is on television.. You know, WWE? This means, I go insane from all the screaming in the house and my bedroom ceiling cracks just a little more from all the jumping around upstairs. My question is, why do people get so into it? It's all scripted and whatnot. So, why? I mean, some of the guys are pretty sexy but other than that, I don't see a clear purpose.

So, last night I could not sleep, remember? And now, I'm tired as fuck. Great life, eh?

Hmm. I've got Taylor on my mind. Taylor is my best friend, she and I have only really known each other for like two months, but it's amazing how we just clicked and became inseparable. Other than Tucker, she's my other half. Taylor is one of the most amazing people you'll ever meet. She's pretty adorable too. She's quirky and loud, and outgoing, but, that's why I love her so much. We just sorta fit together like puzzle pieces. Taylor is the best, best friend you could ask for. She needs me as much as I need her. That's what I love. <3

Currently, my back hurts, and I noticed I complain a lot, but, who doesn't?

I guess you could say I'm in an okay mood today, I don't feel like I'm falling off of a building, nor that I want to jump off of one, or like a bag in the wind. I feel, alive. <3

ShootMeNow

Hmm, so for an English/Photography assignment, we have to read The Lord of the Rings. Shoot me now. If there's one thing I cannot stand, it's fantasy books. The Photography sounds interesting  but TLR, not so much. Joyous.

HaileyHyphen. <3

No, I'm not some stick thin scene kid.

So, no. I'm not some tiny little scene or indie girl everyone loves. I'm not a cute face that you'll ever see plastered on print modeling. Instead, I'm a nobody in the little city of Sioux Falls. But, I'm me, and my thoughts have to account for something, right?

Wrong, unfortunately, that's not how the world operates. Truth is, unless you have something to offer the world, the world has nothing to offer you.

You see, we're really just like any other species on the face of this earth. We're territorial, we live in packs, or alone, and whomever is prettiest or brings home the most is the most important. Society, right?

I'd like to think I'm all about love, I'm nothing without it. It gives me a high like nothing else. Nothing at all. Like bags floating in the wind, one of the most beautiful things out there. Love is where it's at.

 Photo from http://sellmymemories.tumblr.com/



But, let's take a trip to reality, it's currently 3:57 am and I can't sleep. You know how you sleep a million times better when the one you love is next to you? Yeah. That's where I'm stuck now.

Not only can I not sleep, my ass, literally, is burnt form tanning. So, hello bruised feeling, you I can deal with. But this itchiness, not so much.

But, I should probably try and resume my sleep. Good night world, and for some good morning.

Love always,

HaileyHyphen. <3

This is Me.

So, this is me...
I've been given the gift of life, or the world has been given the gift of me, one of the two...
I guess I'm not much at all but I'd like that to change.

If you're wondering about me at all, not that you are, but if by chance you are..
I'm Hailey, I grew up in the boring town of Sioux Falls, South Dakota. If someone gave it as a gift to someone or something, let me tell you, they were awfully cheap. I live with my family, a mom, two dads, three sisters and a brother. There's not much to it. I have a boyfriend named Tucker and he is my whole life. But, let's save some for later, shall we?

If you're at all asking, what the hell is this for? You're answer is, nothing really. But, I like to read about people's lives and whatnot, so maybe you do too? And perhaps you'll find mine interesting? Maybe, by chance, you will. <3

-HaileyHyphen.